My dear sister once gave me a Women’s Daily Devotional and Journal for Christmas in 2004. The intention was to write in it each day after reading and reflecting on that particular topic. I am 100% convinced that I have some harboring but undiagnosed ADHD. I could never do it in sequential order and often went months between journal entries.
I feel justified in using the excuse that it was given to me at a time when I was homeschooling my three young children while taking care of my Parkinson’s ridden mother and my Alzheimer’s ridden father. Still, I loved the messages and the opportunity to be with God. So, I ended up taking way more than a year to complete the journal entries. I also kept the book to refer back to the nuggets of wisdom that I gleaned.
This last Sunday at our church, we had a free book giveaway. We do it each year and it is a fun way for the congregation to get rid of books that no longer serve them and pick up some new ones. Guess what I found? The exact same journal. I was so excited, as I could see that there was someone even more busy than I. When I opened the book, the woman had painstakingly written the date at the top of each page and then never wrote a single word in the margins. I would like to think that she at least gave it a read, but honestly, the binding had not been cracked enough for me to think she read much.
I picked it up and decided that it would be fun to read it again and underline new passages. I will write new things in the margins. Won’t it be fun to someday compare the same entry? I would like to see if I have grown or evolved over the years, or if I tend to still struggle with some of the same issues.
Either way, if I have grown much or not, rereading books or journals, rewatching informational documentaries, and continuing my intellectual growth is something I feel strongly about. Taking time to read and write means shutting off the TV. It means turning off the radio and being still. It means quieting myself long enough to focus.
Allow yourself the pleasure of being cerebral. Think in a new way. Challenge yourself to be a better person. When I allow myself that opportunity, a special peace envelops me and I almost think that I can hear God speaking to me. It is glorious.
I think I get it! Psalms 46: 10 “Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the nations, I will be exalted in the earth”
Exodus 14:14 The Lord will fight for you; you need only to be still.
Psalms 131:2 But I have stilled and quieted my soul; like a weaned child with his mother, like a weaned child is my soul within me.